“Blessed are those who mourn.”

Do you ever feel like there is a hole in your heart? And you work so hard to fill it, to seal it off, to heal it. Quiet time, Bible study, friendship, work, hikes, camping, prayer, reading, creativity, coffee… all these things are life giving. Filling. They help, the heal, they close the gap… but then if you turn the wrong way, take a misstep, get too tired, it all spills back out again and you’re left with a gaping, bloody hole in your chest.

And here is the thing about that; the thing about a bleeding heart: “Jesus wept.” “Blessed are those who mourn.” So, it’s not bad. It’s not wrong. … but where is the line between, say, PTSD and godliness?

In this world we see a doctor, get pills and fix our chemical imbalances. (Unless we’re uninsured. In which case, we wait for health care reform.) But what about prayer? What about behavioral changes? I’m all for Western medicine… but I also believe wholeheartedly in the power of a healing and loving God. And I don’t believe our highest calling in life is to be happy. So where does that leave us? Are these things just situational?

We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him. I love Him, so this will work out ok. I don’t doubt that at all. And I don’t have any sort of health care (thank you, Peet’s Coffee- they dropped me for going to Haiti). This leads me to think that since I can’t see a doctor that I must have to deal with it on a spiritual level. Thing is, though, that I keep feeling like I need help. I am not strong enough, wise enough, or healthy enough to get through this by myself. So who do I count on? And if I do have some kind of post traumatic stress (let’s be real, Haiti was nothing if not traumatic)… well… does God fix that, too?

Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.

Matthew 5:3-4

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One thought on ““Blessed are those who mourn.”

  1. Edgy photos. I just stared my blog in February and have read some of your writing to keep me informed on what this is all about. Health problems have retired me for life (??? never say never???) and there is nothing worse than sitting at home doing nothing. My blog is looking at the possibility of what may occur on or around 2012. I DO NOT PROMOTE THE END OF THE WORLD. It is my utmost hope that either we change how we do everything OR that the Book of Revelation actually starts opening. I personally think that the B of R has been open for quite some time but God has given us FREE WILL and we always have time to change the path we are on. However, I also think that God has predetermined our future. Our future may be set already but we can still alter it somewhat. That the world IS GOING TO CHANGE seems to be a fact. That the two paradoxical theories can work together, side by side, is a living testament to how wonderful and all knowing our Lord and God is. Even though Judas had the free will to not turn on Christ, it did not matter as Jesus would have died anyways, just by someone elses hand. Laying awake at night and trying to look at both sides of this quandry can keep me up for days at a time. Very confusing. Thanks for the ideas I got from your blog, now I have to learn to incorporate pics, clips, links, ect…..good luck and God bless…..ewr

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